#10 DAS GUTE | 50

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The last couple of weeks have been intense, I was working a lot and did not have time to write my thoughts down on the typewriter, they were left in my notebook. Finally, this week, I will be uploading three thoughts.

Thought #10 is about kindness. I used to decide if someone was good and kind based on how that person treated me. But with years I realised, that it was more important how they treated others, the weak, the poor, the overseen, the ignored and unheard.

What am I ought to do with the praise, the kindness and smile of the tormenter of others?

/ Die letzten Wochen waren sehr anstrengend. Ich fand nicht einmal Zeit die wöchentlichen Gedanken auf der Schreibmaschine abzutippen, sie warteten geduldig in meinem Notizbuch. Diese Woche hatte ich nun endlich Gelegenheit und werde drei Gedanken veröffentlichen.

Gedanke #10 handelt vom Guten im Menschen. Mit den Jahren traf ich Menschen, die gut, zuvorkommend und freundlich zu mir waren, aber arrogant, erniedrigend und verletzend zu anderen. Was soll ich, fragte ich mich, mit dem Lob eines Peinigers? Sei er noch so nett, so lieb, so freundlich, so zuvorkommend zu mir – misst sich der Wert eines Menschen nicht an jenen, die er am wenigsten wertschätzt? Wie behandelt er Arme, Schwache, Unsichtbare, Überhörte, Verachtete?

Und dann fragte ich mich: Sind nicht wir alle irgendwie, irgendwo Peiniger anderer Menschen? Auf der Suche nach dem Guten in anderen, sollten wir nicht zuerst das Gute in uns suchen? Wir alle kennen uns, das Gute in uns, vertrauen darauf. Wir kennen unsere Intentionen, ruhen uns auf ihnen aus. Doch prüfen wir uns auch in den Momenten, in denen es am unwichtigsten und nebensächlichsten erscheint?

One thought every Friday for a year #10 | 50

#8 KÜFÜR | 50

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Insanlarin dil algıları herzaman ilgimi çekmiştir. Kelimeler ile kurduğumuz dünyalar birbirlerinden bazen cok farklı anlamlar taşıyabiliyor. Birisine önemsiz, digerine dünyayı anlatıyor aynı kelime.

This week’s thought is about our perception of language – how we build our own worlds through words, worlds that are profoundly different from one another. Sometimes one word doesn’t mean anything to one, but the world to another.

/ I know this one has been delayed. It’s been a superbusy week, that keeps me superbusy until late in the night. Probably until the end of this month even. Sigh.

One thought every Friday for a year #8 | 50

#7 LEGITIMACY | 50

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I know I’m not the first to discover this. I know that there have been loads of other women, minorities & “social climber” who have experienced and reflected on this. But I feel, you have to go through it to truly understand it. It is the fear of arrogance, of becoming someone you never wanted to become, that has always stopped me. But you will never not be in danger of arrogance. It is a constant challenge.

Seeking humbleness & claiming space at the same time – it doesn’t need to be an oxymoron.

PS: I know the thought has been delayed, I wrote it last week but I was traveling so I didn’t have the typewriter with me. And my husband was giving me that look when I asked him if he thinks it’s a good idea to take it with me. :)

I will be traveling this week & the next weeks, too – so I hope I can manage to write the thoughts in advance.

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#2 UMBRÜCHE | 50

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Writing this thought down, I felt the need to do it in German. It is about those times in which you eagerly work towards a certain aim, whilst knowing that you’ll have to wait for that change in your life. You know it’ll come one day. But it’s not there yet. Hence you continue with your life the way it is. And all of the sudden you fear: What if I, whilst waiting, forget what it was that I was waiting for? What if I lose my aim while on my way?

Those moments remind me of “The Alchemist” by Paul Coelho. This book made me think about my past, about my ambitions and the reasons and motivations I’ve had when I started my journey. I wonder if I got lost on my way. I wonder if I’ve lost sight. But as Coelho says: “And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

I’ll just have to remember what it is that I wanted. When I was 17 these were my dreams (in German).

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EVERY FRIDAY: A THOUGHT | 50

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There are thoughts in my head seeking ways to be heard & seen. I started drawing a lot recently. But still, there are so many thoughts unshared, for different reasons. Sometimes I fear it’s incompletion:

After all, aren’t all our thoughts, whether we consider them complete or not, just a state of mind? Aren’t we in constant change, revising and rethinking who we are, want to be and what we think is right? Or at least: Shouldn’t we aim to be in constant development? Being full of energy and ease – full of energy to develop ourselves; full of ease about our flaws and imperfection. Aren’t we just on our way anyways? We will never be complete. And not even death will bring this to an end.
But it is us all who neglect our imperfection. We – as a whole – don’t give each other the freedom to be a traveller on the path of change.

(an excerpt from “Thoughts On Their Way”)

Sometimes simply because I didn’t know I have had this thought. And sometimes because I didn’t have the courage to write it down. Hence this year I have decided to share a thought with you, words, sometimes clear and meaningful, sometimes maybe not so much – every Friday for a year. I decided to write them on my Turkish typewriter not because it looks nice (which I believe it does) but because I don’t want to care about spelling, grammar, structure of the sentences, I want to write carelessly and just let the thought flow without me looking back at it and editing it until it has become something different. I might write in English, in German or Turkish, depending on my mood. I want the thought to be out there, naked, incomplete and vulnerable. Sometimes wrong, silly and even dumb. But at the end of the day it’s a moment I’ve lived. A thought I found worthy to share with you.